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I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of a course in miracles, and fo the very first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.

Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don't want it troubling the mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not think of whatever I had said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents'reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.

You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.