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I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.

Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to talk about wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside a course in miracles. Don't want it troubling your brain, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents'reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.

You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.